Letters to Paul
12/16/11
Dear Paul, I hope everything is going well for you. Your birthday is in four days, and you would’ve been 57.
I can’t begin to tell you everything that’s happened since I last wrote you. I last wrote you in May, and during the first week of June I wound up in the hospital for five days on suicide watch. I didn’t make the attempt, but I was about a week away from doing it. I had my method, location, note, and list of who to notify all planned out. Fortunately I talked with my psychologist and he convinced me to voluntarily admit myself to the hospital. They made an adjustment to my meds in the hospital to stabilize me. Two weeks after I got out of the hospital I saw a guy commit suicide by throwing himself under a MAX train. That really freaked me out because I know exactly how the guy felt when he did it.
I’ve continued having my ups and downs and the constant changing of the meds and dosages have caused me all kinds of problems. I’ve continued the battle, and I’ve come close to going back to the hospital, but things are slowly getting better.
I met a really nice lady named Jessica. She completely understands my condition and she’s cool with it as long as I stay on my meds and keep my doctor appointments. She even has a medical marijuana card. We’ve really hit it off and she has lifted my spirits higher than I could ever imagine. I hope we can maintain our relationship, and I fully believe that she does too. We’ve been spending time together every chance we get, so I’m starting to think she might be a keeper. I guess only time will tell. And yes, I’ve even gotten laid a few times.
I’ve been revamping old episodes of RFU and sending them a couple of old high school buddies. They both remember well my writing style, and they love the RFU. They can also see the influence and inspiration you gave me during the old days. I even sent them the Take My Abuse, Please show which features our legendary Dead Heroin Addict routine. Ah, those were the days.
I still have a life to live, so I’m going to get back to living it. Take care and know that you are still missed, and always will be as long as I have a say in it.
Tracy
Dear Paul, I hope everything is going well for you. Your birthday is in four days, and you would’ve been 57.
I can’t begin to tell you everything that’s happened since I last wrote you. I last wrote you in May, and during the first week of June I wound up in the hospital for five days on suicide watch. I didn’t make the attempt, but I was about a week away from doing it. I had my method, location, note, and list of who to notify all planned out. Fortunately I talked with my psychologist and he convinced me to voluntarily admit myself to the hospital. They made an adjustment to my meds in the hospital to stabilize me. Two weeks after I got out of the hospital I saw a guy commit suicide by throwing himself under a MAX train. That really freaked me out because I know exactly how the guy felt when he did it.
I’ve continued having my ups and downs and the constant changing of the meds and dosages have caused me all kinds of problems. I’ve continued the battle, and I’ve come close to going back to the hospital, but things are slowly getting better.
I met a really nice lady named Jessica. She completely understands my condition and she’s cool with it as long as I stay on my meds and keep my doctor appointments. She even has a medical marijuana card. We’ve really hit it off and she has lifted my spirits higher than I could ever imagine. I hope we can maintain our relationship, and I fully believe that she does too. We’ve been spending time together every chance we get, so I’m starting to think she might be a keeper. I guess only time will tell. And yes, I’ve even gotten laid a few times.
I’ve been revamping old episodes of RFU and sending them a couple of old high school buddies. They both remember well my writing style, and they love the RFU. They can also see the influence and inspiration you gave me during the old days. I even sent them the Take My Abuse, Please show which features our legendary Dead Heroin Addict routine. Ah, those were the days.
I still have a life to live, so I’m going to get back to living it. Take care and know that you are still missed, and always will be as long as I have a say in it.
Tracy
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